Monday, January 30, 2012

Nesting...

So i think this is what some would call nesting ....but before i go into details about that here's what happend over the weekend...

Friday night around 8pm , i was getting myself a glass of water and then woosh liquid went down my leg ... i know what peeing myself is so i knew it was something else so first thought was, OMG my water broke !
So we called our niece to come babysit the kids who were in bed at the time, went in to the hospital to get checked and nope wasnt my waters , they told me it was vaginal discharge ... i was like WTF!?! this is the type of stuff you see in porn movies , not pregnant women?! and she said no its fairly possible... so anyways they checked dilation and im 4½ cm's and baby is lower so they said in a week or so , i should be unpregnant...

so they sent me home ... came back and i had the bright idea of watching paranormal activity 3 with my niece ... LOLLL yep thats me for ya , 37 weeks pregnant and i have the bright idea of watching a movie that makes you jump from your seat every 5 mins... so anyways went to bed and had contractions but nothing that got me thinking im in labor so whatever right? Next day we had my sister in law ,brother in law over for dinner... i made shepard's pie ( paté chinois ) like i usually make it and after dinner i started feeling woozy so i figured i ate too much . Then i fell asleep on the couch aroung 7pm and woke up feeling worst and then the urge to puke came ... went and puked and then took two anti acid tablets and went to bed ... woke up yesturday feeling not so bad but still had an upset stomach.So i took it easy yesturday...

today im feeling awesome , i have so much energy all of a sudden so im going into crazy cleaning mode ... people say im nesting and thats what im thinking too so im gonna give cleaning a shot and maybe it will bring on real labor pains and real labor . well see... although i would like to wait til this weekend... have another week of sleep without disturbance lol

for thoses who have kids ... how did your labor start?

Monday, January 23, 2012

Hectic time...

So theses past weeks have been soooo busy and hectic , its like the holidays all over again...


First the issues and paperwork to settle some buisness ... then getting everything ready for when Clara decides to make her appearence, we got a good deal on a crib on usedottawa.com , 75$ brand new crib still in its box never opened... 75$!!! Can you believe it !! The lady sold it because she wanted a white one and it came in an oak wood color. I am SO proud to land such a great deal for such a great cause and perfect timing...


This week its putting the crib up and tomorow im going to get Gabby's inscription to school done.... SCHOOL! I cant believe how fast it went , seems like yesturday she was born and so itty bitty because she was a preemie ... watching her in that little incubator fighting for her life and wondering if i could ever bring her home and worrying non stop on if she would make it out ok... and now here i am 4 ½ yrs later , getting her ready to go to the big girl school... She amazes me everyday , her learning skills are awesome , she can write pretty much any word you spell out and of course having her carry out the love for music and singing like her momma is a tear jerker for sure. She is such a great big sister to her brothers also , always there to help out when needed , she can make the most horrible and sad conversation into something hilarious and make you forget all the hurt and pain. She is amazing. Now she is very excited to finally be getting a sister to do girly stuff with , this weekend she came up to me and this is the conversation we had :


Gabby: Can i take theses for my dolls ( holding up some pink itty bitty baby clothes)
Me: Yes you can for now but when your little sister gets here you'll have to give them back to her...
Gabby : Why ?
Me: Because she's gonna need them to keep her little body warm...
Gabby : No she wont , she's already fat anyways....



I bursted out laughing , this is what i mean by she will make any situation funny .

or this morning , i made pancakes from scratch and she asked me how i learned to make them and cook them ... so i proceeded to tell her that my Memere aka grandmother  taught me how when i was younger and then i told her about the different kinds we would make and the shapes etc... and so while talking to her about it , i had flash back's to when i was a kid , so i got all teary eyed and then gabby goes : Oh great ! The hormones again? 

So now we are getting ready to welcome another princess into the world... i went to my dr's appointement on the 18th and im already 4cm's dilated and she's head down ready to go . saturday night i had horrible contractions lasted throughout the night , yesturday all day and during the night of yesturday but this morning they seem to be wearing off so im happy cuz im not quite ready for her to be here.. then again who is ever ready to have a baby lol NO ONE , it happends in its time and we have no control over it ... but my plan is to get everything ready this week so that IF she does decide to come, ill have some things done and the other stuff will be done when i get home or if my hunny decides to do it while im in the hospital, it wont be too much for him to handle.

So today is laundry day , the neverending cercle over in this household... Its every 2 days but now since ive been busy elsewhere, its alot of catching up to do . Then dishes too , the floors need to be swept and moped and my bathroom needs a good scrub.

So thats all for today and we shall see what tomorow brings...
have a good week everyone!
xox
Martine

Saturday, January 14, 2012

My Growing Belly ...

so here is a timeline of my baby bump so far :) minus my 35 week pic that i havent yet added to it :) but included at the bottom...




broken up in parts:






and the 35th week pic :




Sunday, January 8, 2012

Hey , i know i havent been blogging as much as i should but lately i have been so busy with preparing for little girl's arrival and many other things , plus the caring for the kids, holidays that were pretty hectic physicly and emotionally so ive been trying to get over it and get back to my normal routine.

So im now 34 weeks and time is moving along fast! At this point im very tired, i cant get around as much which makes me depressed and makes me feel useless.  I know , i know I'm Pregnant and i have a growing baby inside that is getting heavier by the week and its normal to feel this way but i cant help but to feel like theres always something im suposed to be doing that im not, like im forgetting stuff and for a person like me who keeps lists of things to do so i dont forget anything etc, its a hard process.... This is the 3rd trimester and the 3rd degree of the birthing process where i must relax and enjoy my last weeks as a pregnant woman because in not much time , sleep will be a distant memory , aunt flow will kick in full force and ill have a newborn around this already Caotic house. Ive been starting to feel alot of presure between the legs and it makes it hard for me to stand to do simple stuff like the dishes , sweeping, moping , even cooking . My body is slowly getting ready and im not holding back on anything this time around , its like the truth and honnesty in me is a firespitter and it comes out when it has to and sometimes when it shouldnt lol.

On a good note , Max is finally potty trained during the day ... the only issue we have with him is the poopies.
He pooped once in the potty but the rest of the time he does it in his briefs. Ok this is still new to him and he will get around to it since its not like he always does it in his pants , i guess he has a hard time with the timing of ''oh i have to go '' But i am VERY proud of him because diapers are out of the picture for the day and only wears one at night ... It was much easier then i thought it would be because at first he wanted nothing to do with the potty and boom , the week after christmas he starts and now only 1 week into the new year he's potty trained during the day.

Its also the time of year to get Gabby's inscription to school ... YES the big girl school!!! YIKES!!! Where is my preemie baby ??? what Happend ??? She's growing up real fast , changing and coming up with the most hilarious stuff everyday lol she has humor like no other this child . Like for example ,Her greatgrandmother on her dad's side has alzeimers and its pretty severe now and since her grandmother cares for her and the greatgrandma she see's her almost everyday when shes at her dad's and they are all neighbours on the same street so  the other day while having dinner she comes up and says '' Mom , i think dad's grandma is dying '' So as shocked as i was i needed to come up with something thoughtful and delicate to explain to her that she is very sick and when god decides to come take her to heaven  she wont suffer anymore .... so i tell her that and then she says '' Well he better hurry up because she talks to the mirror'' I couldnt help myself and had to turn away to laugh ... She turned a sad conversation to a hilarious one ... Not that its funny but the way she said it and the way her facial expressions came out , it was too much for it not to be funny.

On to Nicolas , Oh dear lord does this child ever have a mind of his own . He NEVER stops moving... He NEVER can sit tight somewhere without getting into something or touching everything he shouldnt. the ONLY way to get him sitting tight somewhere is to put on Adele and he sits on the couch singing along and swaying to the music. Adele is wonderful , even though i dont know her personally i need to get it on video and send it to her ... hes 16 months old and is a fan , can you believe it ? lol So yesturday i decided he needed a haircut and since i never take any of my kids to the hairdresser , i do it myself at home to avoid the tantrums and the embarassement lol So i was trying to figure out a way to get him to hold still while i cut his hair , so i had recorded an interview of adele in which she sings ''someone like you'' & '' rolling in the deep'' so i push play and had him in his highchair and he did not move a muscle.... i got to cut his hair and i was amazed cuz like i said this child does NOT sit through anything and is constantly on the move.

This is the before :

And this is the after ( his 1st hair cut ): He hated the clipper so thats why i got tears for this next pic :P

All forgotten and happy again



So thats what i have to blog about for today... i hope you guys have a great sunday! Dont forget to comment , its nice to get feedback and comments once in a while to see who really does read and its not just to snoop up on the pictures. Anyone can comment , just use the box below this post and voila.

xox
Martine

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Goodbye 2011.....

Or more like good riddence 2011!

This year was a very hard year on lots of us and on me and my family . We had our downs more then our ups,but im glad that we made it through and we can look back and say that even though it felt impossible sometimes to overcome the issues we had going on , we did and without a scratch.

Theses are the things i am most thankful for , my family, friends, life and most of all my kids and fiancé ...
They kept me grounded more then anything and although our life is not perfect , we keep it together and make things work and im very proud that i can say we push through and make it through any challenge life throws at us. It's not what you get in life that's important , its what you already have... I think alot of us forget to look around and see how trully lucky we are to have all that we do and appreciate it and lots of us just think about the things we want and will most likely not use or need. Ive learned this year that money cant buy you love , it cant bring you happiness , sure it does help but money is nothing compared to things youve earned and worked for.

As much as the good is earned , the bad is also ... If you do something bad or hurt someone, it shall and WILL come back on you . Maybe not in the same way you had it done but it does come back. Like my mom says , people need to look evil in the ugly eye and beat it with a smile. A simple smile, nice gesture, thank you is always the way to go ... you never know how much it can mean to one person or if you will need it someday too. Like i said good is earned just as bad is earned. It's a chain that never ends, start it with nasty bad stuff and youll get nasty bad stuff ... start and continue with the good and you get the good.

Im proud of my children and their great manners, my 1yr old says please and thank you ... so i think if a 1 yr old can do it , an adult can to . Its simple little words that mean everything to one .

I hope that 2012 is better then 2011 , i hope im better in 2012 then i was in 2011...
2012 will be loaded with good things for me and my family , In febuary we welcome our little princess into the world, in march my oldest son turns 7, in april my daughter turns 5 , in august my 3rd son turns 2 and in september my 2nd son turns 4... I am trully blessed with all theses kids and each one of them bring a little something special to my life. When all else fails , i know there is one thing i never have and never will fail on and its being a mother. The values i have taught them , the future i have built for them , the hugs and kisses and the i love you mommy moments , like i said when all else fails and the world is coming down on me ... i think of theses precious 5 little gifts and what they bring to my life and i feel like superwoman and that i can and will make it through . There's so many people in this world who arent so lucky , some have kids but live on streets, some have kids but dont appreciate or take care of them , some have no kids and wish upon a star that one day they will , some dont have a home , food or anyone to come home to. I am lucky because everytime i pass my my front door i get 4 kisses, 4 hugs and 3 little voices saying i love you . And when i return i get 4 kisses, 4 hugs and 3 little smiles that are happy to see me. I wake up every morning with the sound of little feet coming into my room , tugging on my blanket and when i open my eyes , i see that god has blessed me with another day by their sides.

I am so thankful for all that i have and i am also thankful for everything that i don't have. Sometimes we get greedy with life but we all need to relax and take a look around to what really matters. Ive learned alot about myself and life this year and whats wonderful is every year i learn more , my experiences make me grow and im thankful that i have the ability to see and reconise that.

The things i will be looking forward to leave behind me are...
the struggles we had financially , the tears that i shed and the people that have hurt me. the new year is like a mega spring cleaning only in january ( for us cuz i know we dont all have the same new year date) its a time to look back and sort everything out and clean out the bad and bring in the good. Out with the old and in with the new. I hope you all have a terrific year and that 2012 brings you everything your heart desires, I hope that all the sick people find a cure to their illness and find some health and peace of mind. So when you wake up tomorow morning please remember that whatever you struggled with yesturday is what made you stronger today, experience is everything wether you learn it by the bad stuff or the good stuff. Don't take life for granted because it can all be gone before you know it ...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Merry Christmas .... yay its finally over!

Well for thoses of you who celebrate christmas , i hope it was a good one :)

We had a BUSY couple of weeks so im sorry if i havent updated this in a while...

Went to my monthly routine appointement on the 20th and found out that baby is NOT a boy but a GIRL!!! I am over the moon excited! We wanted a baby girl so bad and were a lil disapointed when they said boy at our 19 week scan. But since my last baby decided to flip back to breach position my dr decided to do a little scan and saw GIRL PARTS and NO PENIS! She said they most likely took the embilical cord for a penis and that it happends alot. So we are finally having our 1st princess together ! Yes i have a daughter she is 4 but she is not my fiancé biological daughter and we had 2 boys together and we were really hoping for a girl this time around.So we finally are getting our wish and my daughter is SOOOO excited to be getting a little sister to play dolls , barbies and all the girly stuff with .Plus my due date had changed , according to baby's weight and everything else ... i am due Febuary 17th ( my father in law's birthday! ) so that puts me at 33 weeks this friday...
On christmas day i woke up with the news that my father was back in the hospital for heart palpitations and complications and water in his lungs, Basicly he was drowning without being head under water . He was having a hard time to breath and decided to go in to the hospital to check things out , worst way to start off the day especially on christmas. But my mom kept me updated and i knew that i had to be strong for my kids and not let my emotions get the best of me and ruin their special day with my sobbing, so i hid myself when i needed to let tears shed and even though it was hard to put on a mask and pretend to be happy while guests were here, i still had my little moments to let a few tears out and talk about it to let it all out. Earlier that morning  i went to pick up my oldest son at his grandmothers , his dad's mom lives 20 mins away and he brought him down there for me to be able to pick him up because driving 3 hrs to his place was out of the question since my only ride down is my dad and with his heart condition he's unable to drive. So i was really happy to finally see and take home my little man for the week and for christmas :) Sadly i have to bring him back on the 31st but thats how it is for now and i will have to live with it and one day i will get him back to living with me . Me and his dad do not see eye to eye since our last phone fight where things got ugly and even though he said he wouldnt give me any trouble when i wanted to take custody back , he is and because of that hes making it difficult and things will get ugly before they get pretty but thats on him... i have been nothing but nice to him and i get shit on .. karma's a bitch they say...
Later that day when i got home with my oldest , we had the kids open their gifts and then it was time to get everything ready for visitors to start arriving for christmas dinner. We had lots of fun , My mother in law , father in law , baby's godfather ,my fiancé's aunt and her hubby , my sister in law and her boyrfriend and their daughter came too plus my father in law's long time friend , his wife and their son came too ... needless to say my appartement was LOADED but loaded with love and fun! Guests were all gone by 10pm , so after that we put the kids to bed and cleaned up a bit then it was bed time for us , i was exausted from all the crying and i knew that the next day was going to be tough cuz i was going to see my dad in the hospital.
The next morning i decided to give my mom a call to see how my dad was doing , and to my suprise my dad answers the phone. O.O i was like holy shit im dreaming, how can he answer the phone at home while hes at the hospital and i was like omg it is him ... i Imediatly started crying my eyes out and bawling over the phone telling him how scared i was to lose him and that he doesnt know how much he means to me and he responded well babe im getting old , one day you will lose me and my health issues come with age and thats what life does to ya ... i was like yeah but dad your only 50! you cant leave now , i need to you walk me down the aisle , see your 5th grandchild and a bunch of other things ... So we spoke for a short while he explained to me everything the dr's told him and told me he had new meds to take and had to mesure his liquid intake and is only alloud to have 1.5L to drink daily. And that he should see his cardialogist to know whats the deal with his heart and if he will need a pacemaker ( we all know the doctor told him he will have to at some point but he's in denial about it ).
So on the 26th , we stayed home... i spent half the day going through the old toys and sorting them out for space for the new toys... kids played with their new toys and i got some cleaning and laundry done... We had a pretty relax day.
Yesturday (27th) was christmas at my mom's & dad's , we originally were suposed to have it on the 26th but since my dad had went into the hospital and had got out on the 26th , i wanted to let my mom get some rest and dad some rest before i bombarded them with my full of energy kiddos lol. So we got there at around 4pm , had dinner around 6pm , then the kids opened their gifts and played around... man was it ever HECTIC though , my 4 kids plus my oncle's 2 kids ... running around , the play fighting that drove me INSANE because my kids know better then to play fight , I HATE VIOLENCE and was not having it at all ! We took lots of pics, was really nice to see my fiancé and dad finally getting along and watching the hockey game together , having a laugh and acting like old time buddys! It was my wish come true since they never got along and my dad is usually cold hearted and never looked at him or spoke to him much but i guess his heart condition and scares and seeing death up close made him realise just how much it meant to me for them to have a good relationship and that it was important to him too since he is the father to 3 of his 5 grandkids.
So yeah its been a hectic week but im glad its over.... i took down all the christmas decorations today , tree and everything ... re-aranged my living room back to the way it was :D and ready to start the new year. Nothing planned other then having a nice turkey dinner on the 31st and having my sister in law , brother in law and their daughter over for dinner and then for the countdown. A nice little relaxed get together :)

Here's a few pics :


















My Mom's place




Mom with my 4 kiddos


My 4 babies


Me and my Little big family :)


My mom and dad with the kids ( see how his new meds are working pretty well loll )





Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Santa Baby

So christmas is just around the corner , Max went to visit with his aunt and since she works at a mall there was a santa there she brought him to have his picture taken with him .... I brought Gabrielle but it wasnt at the same mall so santa wasnt the same... and well while i was there i thought to myself why not make my 28th week belly pic a picture with santa ? :P  so here are the results... I was in a rush this morning so i only got the time to do my hair so its no makeup .. i think i look horrible but people wont tell me that lol Nicolas was terrified of santa so maybe next year we will be able to get a picture of him with santa ... along with the new baby and hopefully Nate too .