Goodbye 2011.....

Or more like good riddence 2011!

This year was a very hard year on lots of us and on me and my family . We had our downs more then our ups,but im glad that we made it through and we can look back and say that even though it felt impossible sometimes to overcome the issues we had going on , we did and without a scratch.

Theses are the things i am most thankful for , my family, friends, life and most of all my kids and fiancé ...
They kept me grounded more then anything and although our life is not perfect , we keep it together and make things work and im very proud that i can say we push through and make it through any challenge life throws at us. It's not what you get in life that's important , its what you already have... I think alot of us forget to look around and see how trully lucky we are to have all that we do and appreciate it and lots of us just think about the things we want and will most likely not use or need. Ive learned this year that money cant buy you love , it cant bring you happiness , sure it does help but money is nothing compared to things youve earned and worked for.

As much as the good is earned , the bad is also ... If you do something bad or hurt someone, it shall and WILL come back on you . Maybe not in the same way you had it done but it does come back. Like my mom says , people need to look evil in the ugly eye and beat it with a smile. A simple smile, nice gesture, thank you is always the way to go ... you never know how much it can mean to one person or if you will need it someday too. Like i said good is earned just as bad is earned. It's a chain that never ends, start it with nasty bad stuff and youll get nasty bad stuff ... start and continue with the good and you get the good.

Im proud of my children and their great manners, my 1yr old says please and thank you ... so i think if a 1 yr old can do it , an adult can to . Its simple little words that mean everything to one .

I hope that 2012 is better then 2011 , i hope im better in 2012 then i was in 2011...
2012 will be loaded with good things for me and my family , In febuary we welcome our little princess into the world, in march my oldest son turns 7, in april my daughter turns 5 , in august my 3rd son turns 2 and in september my 2nd son turns 4... I am trully blessed with all theses kids and each one of them bring a little something special to my life. When all else fails , i know there is one thing i never have and never will fail on and its being a mother. The values i have taught them , the future i have built for them , the hugs and kisses and the i love you mommy moments , like i said when all else fails and the world is coming down on me ... i think of theses precious 5 little gifts and what they bring to my life and i feel like superwoman and that i can and will make it through . There's so many people in this world who arent so lucky , some have kids but live on streets, some have kids but dont appreciate or take care of them , some have no kids and wish upon a star that one day they will , some dont have a home , food or anyone to come home to. I am lucky because everytime i pass my my front door i get 4 kisses, 4 hugs and 3 little voices saying i love you . And when i return i get 4 kisses, 4 hugs and 3 little smiles that are happy to see me. I wake up every morning with the sound of little feet coming into my room , tugging on my blanket and when i open my eyes , i see that god has blessed me with another day by their sides.

I am so thankful for all that i have and i am also thankful for everything that i don't have. Sometimes we get greedy with life but we all need to relax and take a look around to what really matters. Ive learned alot about myself and life this year and whats wonderful is every year i learn more , my experiences make me grow and im thankful that i have the ability to see and reconise that.

The things i will be looking forward to leave behind me are...
the struggles we had financially , the tears that i shed and the people that have hurt me. the new year is like a mega spring cleaning only in january ( for us cuz i know we dont all have the same new year date) its a time to look back and sort everything out and clean out the bad and bring in the good. Out with the old and in with the new. I hope you all have a terrific year and that 2012 brings you everything your heart desires, I hope that all the sick people find a cure to their illness and find some health and peace of mind. So when you wake up tomorow morning please remember that whatever you struggled with yesturday is what made you stronger today, experience is everything wether you learn it by the bad stuff or the good stuff. Don't take life for granted because it can all be gone before you know it ...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Merry Christmas .... yay its finally over!

Well for thoses of you who celebrate christmas , i hope it was a good one :)

We had a BUSY couple of weeks so im sorry if i havent updated this in a while...

Went to my monthly routine appointement on the 20th and found out that baby is NOT a boy but a GIRL!!! I am over the moon excited! We wanted a baby girl so bad and were a lil disapointed when they said boy at our 19 week scan. But since my last baby decided to flip back to breach position my dr decided to do a little scan and saw GIRL PARTS and NO PENIS! She said they most likely took the embilical cord for a penis and that it happends alot. So we are finally having our 1st princess together ! Yes i have a daughter she is 4 but she is not my fiancé biological daughter and we had 2 boys together and we were really hoping for a girl this time around.So we finally are getting our wish and my daughter is SOOOO excited to be getting a little sister to play dolls , barbies and all the girly stuff with .Plus my due date had changed , according to baby's weight and everything else ... i am due Febuary 17th ( my father in law's birthday! ) so that puts me at 33 weeks this friday...

On christmas day i woke up with the news that my father was back in the hospital for heart palpitations and complications and water in his lungs, Basicly he was drowning without being head under water . He was having a hard time to breath and decided to go in to the hospital to check things out , worst way to start off the day especially on christmas. But my mom kept me updated and i knew that i had to be strong for my kids and not let my emotions get the best of me and ruin their special day with my sobbing, so i hid myself when i needed to let tears shed and even though it was hard to put on a mask and pretend to be happy while guests were here, i still had my little moments to let a few tears out and talk about it to let it all out. Earlier that morning  i went to pick up my oldest son at his grandmothers , his dad's mom lives 20 mins away and he brought him down there for me to be able to pick him up because driving 3 hrs to his place was out of the question since my only ride down is my dad and with his heart condition he's unable to drive. So i was really happy to finally see and take home my little man for the week and for christmas :) Sadly i have to bring him back on the 31st but thats how it is for now and i will have to live with it and one day i will get him back to living with me . Me and his dad do not see eye to eye since our last phone fight where things got ugly and even though he said he wouldnt give me any trouble when i wanted to take custody back , he is and because of that hes making it difficult and things will get ugly before they get pretty but thats on him... i have been nothing but nice to him and i get shit on .. karma's a bitch they say...

Later that day when i got home with my oldest , we had the kids open their gifts and then it was time to get everything ready for visitors to start arriving for christmas dinner. We had lots of fun , My mother in law , father in law , baby's godfather ,my fiancé's aunt and her hubby , my sister in law and her boyrfriend and their daughter came too plus my father in law's long time friend , his wife and their son came too ... needless to say my appartement was LOADED but loaded with love and fun! Guests were all gone by 10pm , so after that we put the kids to bed and cleaned up a bit then it was bed time for us , i was exausted from all the crying and i knew that the next day was going to be tough cuz i was going to see my dad in the hospital.

The next morning i decided to give my mom a call to see how my dad was doing , and to my suprise my dad answers the phone. O.O i was like holy shit im dreaming, how can he answer the phone at home while hes at the hospital and i was like omg it is him ... i Imediatly started crying my eyes out and bawling over the phone telling him how scared i was to lose him and that he doesnt know how much he means to me and he responded well babe im getting old , one day you will lose me and my health issues come with age and thats what life does to ya ... i was like yeah but dad your only 50! you cant leave now , i need to you walk me down the aisle , see your 5th grandchild and a bunch of other things ... So we spoke for a short while he explained to me everything the dr's told him and told me he had new meds to take and had to mesure his liquid intake and is only alloud to have 1.5L to drink daily. And that he should see his cardialogist to know whats the deal with his heart and if he will need a pacemaker ( we all know the doctor told him he will have to at some point but he's in denial about it ).

So on the 26th , we stayed home... i spent half the day going through the old toys and sorting them out for space for the new toys... kids played with their new toys and i got some cleaning and laundry done... We had a pretty relax day.

Yesturday (27th) was christmas at my mom's & dad's , we originally were suposed to have it on the 26th but since my dad had went into the hospital and had got out on the 26th , i wanted to let my mom get some rest and dad some rest before i bombarded them with my full of energy kiddos lol. So we got there at around 4pm , had dinner around 6pm , then the kids opened their gifts and played around... man was it ever HECTIC though , my 4 kids plus my oncle's 2 kids ... running around , the play fighting that drove me INSANE because my kids know better then to play fight , I HATE VIOLENCE and was not having it at all ! We took lots of pics, was really nice to see my fiancé and dad finally getting along and watching the hockey game together , having a laugh and acting like old time buddys! It was my wish come true since they never got along and my dad is usually cold hearted and never looked at him or spoke to him much but i guess his heart condition and scares and seeing death up close made him realise just how much it meant to me for them to have a good relationship and that it was important to him too since he is the father to 3 of his 5 grandkids.

So yeah its been a hectic week but im glad its over.... i took down all the christmas decorations today , tree and everything ... re-aranged my living room back to the way it was :D and ready to start the new year. Nothing planned other then having a nice turkey dinner on the 31st and having my sister in law , brother in law and their daughter over for dinner and then for the countdown. A nice little relaxed get together :)

Here's a few pics :

My Mom's place

Mom with my 4 kiddos

My 4 babies

Me and my Little big family :)

My mom and dad with the kids ( see how his new meds are working pretty well loll )

Santa Baby

So christmas is just around the corner , Max went to visit with his aunt and since she works at a mall there was a santa there she brought him to have his picture taken with him .... I brought Gabrielle but it wasnt at the same mall so santa wasnt the same... and well while i was there i thought to myself why not make my 28th week belly pic a picture with santa ? :P  so here are the results... I was in a rush this morning so i only got the time to do my hair so its no makeup .. i think i look horrible but people wont tell me that lol Nicolas was terrified of santa so maybe next year we will be able to get a picture of him with santa ... along with the new baby and hopefully Nate too .

27 weeks 4 days baby bump

Here i am

27 weeks 4 days  , like i promissed...

Happy Saturday everyone !!!

Well we did get some snow but of course it all melted... i wish it would stay .... christmas is in 15 days and it doesnt even look like christmas out there :( Mother nature is not being fair to the kids !!!!

i don't have much to post about today , im catching up on my cleaning to do list before christmas... i have SO much to do . Next week is going to be a busy week ! I need to go finish my christmas shopping and then i need to start working on the gifts for our guests... i'm thinking of doing either coffee mugs with christmas cookies or making coffee mugs with candy & treats in them .... I even thought of making christmas stockings for everyone this year with little knick knacks and stuff.... I dont know yet i guess ill look around the dollar store and come up with something with what they have...I want to make this christmas unforgettable ! not just for the kids but for our guests who are coming over. And its a nice gesture to make them a little something to bring back home as a thank you gift for attending our first ever christmas.

Ive hosted christmas before but for my family back in 2003 , my first appartement . But back then i had no kids , it wasnt the same as now.... christmas has taken a different turn ever since i had my kids and i want people to remember this year and hope they enjoy themselves so much that they come back next year and every year so we can make this a tradition :)

My mom has always hosted christmas on the 25th for the family and this year its my turn and the torch is passed down to me . So i wanna do things right.

On the 25th I'm having my mother in law , father in law , sister in law , niece , brother in law , baby's godfather and his girlfriend , my father in law's friends and their son , his sister and her hubby ... plus my 4 kiddos . On the 26th i'm having my mom , dad , brother , grandma on my dad's side , my dad's sister , my grandparents on my mom's side over. So it's gonna be two days that will be busy and hectic but its all worth it! I get to have nate from the 25th to the 5th of january so thats awesome !!!

I'm thinking it will be a busy time but so worth it. I'm not worried about cooking on the 25th cuz we are having a potluck , eeryone is bringing something so all i have to do is make desserts, ordoeuvres and coffee- tea- juice - soda... i specified its a bring your own alcohol , i dont drink , neither does etienne so it would be fair that i pay for their liquor and then should someone act like an idiot have to deal with them... So its give your keys at the door and if you drink too much , ur going on in a taxi and getting ur keys the next day . I dont care if it pisses anyone off but thats how it is... ive lost many people because of drinking and driving and im not gonna feel guilty about them leaving MY party and live with the guilt that i could of should of prevented it...

Anyways!!! I hope you all have a great weekend !

heres a few pics ... ( no new belly pics yet but ill post some this weekend before i turn 28 weeks)

My daughter :

My youngest son Nicolas :

Alright where's the snow mother nature? i just checked the forecast for the next few days and if my calender wouldnt say we are in december i'd think it was spring or fall.... it's crazy , we usually have tons of snow by this time of year, i'm starting to believe the whole global warming thing...

So today is gonna be a easy go day , gonna get the dishes done , finish my 2 loads of laundry and then relax with my boys. Maybe even snap a few pics of my belly this afternoon too , i need a 27 week belly pic so maybe when the boys nap ill go do my hair and makeup and take a few shots of this huge buldge hehe...

Yesturday i had horrible heartburn , they say the 3rd trimester is when the not so fun symptoms come back ... I tell myself if heartburn is the only not so fun symptom that i do get for the remaining weeks of this pregnancy then im glad to deal with just that . I didnt get morning sickness like i did with the others , ok so i cant find a comfortable spot to sleep in but thats normal...and i have to go pee every 2 mins .

I'm going to start drinking more water too , so when bubs is born .. ill maybe have better chances for breastfeeding. My next OBGYN appointement is on the 20th , i cant wait to find out how much my belly is mesuring and hear the sweet sound of my baby's heartbeat again. I'm glad its almost due date time but in a way im sad because it went by soooo fast!

So happy Thursday to all my readers and ill post pics as soon as i can get some time in to take some :)
xox
Martine

One of thoses days...

You know they days where everything annoys you? Everyone all of a sudden say things that do not turn right in your mind? The days where nothing goes right? The days where you fill like your best friend is the wall because at least they dont piss you off? Yep, i'm having one of thoses days .... My Fiancé says its my hormones but him saying that just annoys me more... so i smile and tell myself that he's a man and what the f*ck does he know about hormones?!?! and then i reasure myself by feeling sorry for him being such a man...

Do you ever feel  like people say things and even though they might not be talking about you or pointing at you , that you cant help but feel like they are? Well im having that issue right now ...It ticks me off because i should say something and believe me i want to ... But if i tell that person how i feel , ill look like the ragging pregnant woman who's having a hormone overload. It all started with a comment some woman posted on a forum , regarding the woman with 15 kids who's on welfair and had them pay up her rent or debt or whatever ( by the way , i didnt even read or watch the story because if i did , i prolly would of gotten into it ) ... So this ''woman'' posted as a responce to the story that women that are on welfair should get their tubes tied after 3 or 4 kids.... this is what i wanted to say but didnt wanna cause a scene so once again this little lady chose to shut the f*ck up about it...

Listen , i know its not fair because no one pays your rent but every story is different and you do NOT know what this woman has gone through ... weither she has 1 kid like you or 40 kids, its none of your god-damn buisness... if welfair chose to pay off her debt well they must of had a good reason to do so cause if they didnt  they wouldnt of. I also know its frustrating for thoses who arent on wefair that pay taxes to support the governement who pays theses welfair people to see them giving out money while your working hard for what you have and to get by . But again , you do not know what welfair people go through ... Like me for instance, i am allowed to apply for welfair and i am intitled to it because of my situation but i dont because i count myself lucky to have a roof over my head and to be getting by with what i have and doing what i can with the little amount of money i have. No i do not work and no im not on welfair but because of people like YOU , i am ashamed of going to the welfair office and asking for the help that i would benefit from and should benefit from. It's not your place to judge someone based on what a news story says about someone just because she has alot of kids.

I feel like if i can get by with what i have as an income then ill leave the welfair for someone who needs it more, and i can see how a single mother with 15 kids would need it more then i do . Maybe the father of her children died in a tragic accident , maybe she was raped and chose to keep the children instead of aborting or filling up an orphanage? Maybe shes caring for a relative's kids because they died and now shes left with all theses responsibilitys and would rather ASK for help then to shoot herself in the head because she cant take no more ? YOU DON'T KNOW THE REAL STORY !!!! all you know is what the news repporter said on tv.

I agree that people should be tested for drugs or alcohol before being given welfair checks , i agree that every welfair beneficiary should have a social worker and a therapist to help them get their life in order so they don't need to depend on the governement to pay for them or their familys. I also do agree that people should think before they pass judgement on someone. Your words are what hurt me . Ok so im not on welfair but if ever i had the guts to say screw this i need financial assistance and go to welfair to collect my check , i'll always have the thought that im doing something wrong when really im helping myself get on track.

then you have one girl who posts her comment saying , Well why does she need more money , she lives in a housing unit and they do not charge that much for rent...

this is for you and let me tell you a thing or two about the lovely life living in a housing unit project:

I live in a neighbourhood where i see people who are on welfair , drunk all the time , i walk into my hallway to smell pot and only to come face to face with my neighbour smoking her joint right there in the hallway where my front door is and shes on welfair , I see some that have expensive dogs and new 2011-2012 cars and they have more then one . I have came across children who are told by their parents to go play outside when its 11pm at night and they wanna get their buzz on without having their kid around . I've seen alot of that type of shit , do you think i choose this for my kids to live in ? Do you think it was my plan to live in a housing unit like this? NO it wasnt my plan and it is not what i want them to grow up in but in order to get out of here my only hope would be to go to welfair and have extra money so i can afford a full rent appartement or even a house in my case because of my large family .

I have called the housing unit, made complaints only to have them backfire on me ... my neighbours HATE me , they call me a cow for stooling them out ... so really what other choice do i have? All i can do is go to welfair for help, it's not to depend on tax payers to pay for me and my kids while i go light up or shoot up or take advantage of the system , NO! its to get the hell out of here and give my kids the life they deserve.

I dont take my kids outside , people say im mean for not doing so ... but do i really want to bring them outside for them to bring me a crack pipe ? or a used condom? or pick up on the behaviors of theses animals who are my neighbours kids? No way in hell ... so to take them out , i have to take my kids to a park 5 blocks away from my house .

Do i like having to hear all the fights that my neighbours have at 3am - 4 am and then again at 7 am in the morning? 3am is usually the drunk fighting , when they run out of beer or when the stoners run out of drugs... 4 am is when things get ugly because they cant find anyone to get them anything so they take it out on their boyfriends, girlfriends or they do find some and crank their music up way loud and wake me and my kids up and then at 7am they are yelling at their kids to get up for school and then they fight with them because they partied too hard last night and dont want them bothering their sleep so its basicly , go to school and leave me the fuck alone...but the kids do you think they listen when they spent the n ight being woken up by their parents yelling, fighting and music? NOP so it goes on til about 10 am ... by that time my kids are up , cranky cuz they didnt sleep well and im tired cuz i had to endure it too...

so after reading this , do you understand why i choose to go ask help at welfair? Im human too... my kids deserve better and i sure as hell wont spend the rest of my life living in a shit hole and go through my life living on other peoples stress and problems. So when you go to bed , in your satin sheets and set your timer on your little coffee deluxe machines , close your chandelire light in your deluxe decorated kitchen in your 5 star home .... have a little thought for ones like me who go to bed wondering if they will be able to sleep tonight , or worst if someone will break into my appartement and shoot me and my family for making a complaint to the housing unit because i want a better lifestyle for my kids.

Think before you judge people.... take a walk in their shoes and THEN post your opinion....

Happy December to everyone !

Sorry i havent posted in a while , alot has went on since my last entry...

My father had 4 infarctus last week and was rushed into the hospital for heart surgery. He was able to come home last weekend and has been doing ok but he's not out of the woods so we are waiting to see what the heart dr will said tomorow and he might need a pacemaker. Id go into details but its still very new to me and im still a little shaken up by it . I pray everything is ok and he pulls through because i am so not ready to lose him, even though me and my dad dont have the perfect father/daughter relationship he is still my dad and i still need him.

I am 27 weeks pregnant today , only 13 more weeks til my due date so i say 10-12 weeks before i meet this little guy . I have a bunch of questions i ask myself, like who is this one gonna look like most , how fast labor will be this time since its my 5th , how much he will weigh because as of now im already having strangers walk up to me and say ''any day now huh'' and then i tell them im not due til march 6th and they have this embarassed look on their faces and they bable trying to find the words to tell me im not fat lolll i find it hilarious because i like having a BIG belly , the bigger the better because it clearly shows im pregnant . Ill try and post a belly picture tonight or tomorow.

I started myself on a cleaning schedual , i printed it out and everyday i have a normal routine i go about ( dishes, sweeping, feed the cat , wipping down counters and tables etc....) Every 2 days i add mopping to the list , dusting and  so far so good , ive been keeping up with it . Somedays i have no motivation but i hate looking around to find a messy space so i tell myself if i dont get off my ass now it will be worst later. The kids have their own little chores like , pick up their toys after they are done playing,cleanign their rooms, making their beds , making sure they put their pj's in the laundry basket and not leave it on the ground and as they get older there will be more thing they will be able to do like feed the cat , gabby will be able to help mom with the dishes ... If i had a dishwasher id get them to help load and unload it but i dont so id rather do it myself then have to re-wash half of it afterwards... Gabby i sometimes give her a wet cloth and ask her to help with dusting and she also uses the dirt buster handheld vaccum for the couch and little dry messes... I wanna get them to be responsible and clean so that when they move out or go somewhere they wont look like slobs and Mommy wont be called all the time to be asked to go help them do the cleaning. I also get them to help unload the dryer... and then put the wet clean clothes in the dryer, close the door...etc they love it. So its the best time to teach them.

My mom did everything for me growing up and i ended up being a hoarder , i kicked the habbit when my kids were born but sometimes i still have issues with clutter... i can say that since i move back to gatineau i havent had issues with it ... ok so my room is not picture perfect but no one goes there but me and my fiancé and i keep the door shut so its all good lol

So im gonna go about my day , cuz if i dont do something, nothing will get done....

Have a great tuesday everyone !
xox
Martine

Hello thursday! woke up a little later then usual and i hate it , yep a mom that hates sleeping in ... i like to sleep in but not too much . I always feel like i'm losing half my day when i do , anyways yesturday we got snow and i was afraid to wake up this morning and see it all gone but nop theres still some left and i'm hoping we get more so it doesnt go back to being green and mushy outthere....

Yesturday my man had a job interview , and he GOT THE JOB!!! I'm so happy this is the perfect timing for us and plus now people can stop annoying me with the '' tell him to get a job'' phrase. Jobs now a days are VERY hard to find and like all the honnest , loving , faithful men in this world... the good one are taken. But He did it , im so very proud of him and to see him light up telling me about the job and interview was just awesome to see him so passionate about it. The hours are great , 3pm to 8pm ( and i wont give more details in case i have stalkers lol ) So he gets to spend time with the kids and me and when i get bigger and more unable to do stuff , it wont be so bad because during the day he will be home and then its planning dinner , making dinner, bathing the kids and bed time . So i'm very very happy today :) And he starts tomorow :D

The pregnancy is going great , i'm now 25 weeks and 2 days along ... baby is growing very well and he's a little kicker for sure and its offical now i can no longer see my feet , shaving my legs is a sport , going up stairs seems like the stairs add up as i go ... but other from that i have no complaints , ive gained 15lbs so far , no morning sickness other then before i found out i was pregnant ... yeah before, its like it was the sign that made me test lol and once i took the test and it read positive... thats it , it was gone! a few headaches at the begining and major tooth ache from time to time but compared to my other pregnancies , this one is a breeze!!! Im so thankful for that because with the little army of kids i have to care for and my house dutys , this pregnancy being easy is just what i needed :)

So today , i have laundry to finish up ... dishes and i wanna sweep and mom the rest of the house , i got the living room and hallway done yesturday but today i wanna tackle my kitchen , dining room, bedroom & bathroom floors....

My Daughter comes home from her time at her dad's tomorow and i cant wait , ive missed my little diva . She's so loved , Max asks for her non stop and im sure if Nick could speak a phrase he would to .. she is soooo good with her little brothers , keeps them busy , helps out mommy alot too . I just know that one day when she has kids of her own , she will make a WONDERFUL mother <3

i haven't had the time to take my 25 week pic yet but here is my 24 week one:

Let it snow , Let it snow , Let it snow!!

Woke up to a wonderful suprise this morning ....

SNOW!!!!!

I love seeing it fall , most people complain about it but then again i don't have a car to sweep or scrape , or a driveway to shovel but to see my kids faces light up with a big smile when they see the first snowfall is AMAZING! 

So this snow has motivated me, yep you heard right motivated ... im gonna do my usual housework and then put up the rest of my christmas decorations :) My tree has been up for a week now but the rest is still undone. 

So this afternoon , im gonna crank some christmas music and deck the halls!

Sorry if i havent posted anything in a while, the past week has been hectic and i didnt have the time to sit down and really post and with everything that went on , i didnt have anything but to complain and post about so i figured i wouldnt bore you with my whining.... hehe 

Have a great day everyone!

xox

Martine

What a day , and it aint over yet ... But when bath time comes around i know that bed time is not far and then its Mommy & Daddy alone time :D , I love my kids but with my gang i'm allowed to look forward to our alone time.

So yesturday i got some christmas decorations like the tree and stockings and window stickers.So once nicolas was asleep , Me and max started the christmas tree and it looks great! I let him stay up a little later then usual so he could participate , i kept the other decorations for when my daughter comes back from her stay at her father's house that way she doesnt feel left out . Nicolas LOVES the tree , so much he's become a tree hugger.. no seriously he's always near it , trying to pick candy canes out , trying to pull on the beeds and anything his little hands can reach so we put the coffee table in front of the tree thinking that will stop him.... NOPE! He's able to push the coffee table around and make his way to the tree. The only thing cute about it is when i put the lights on , his little face and smile lights up with the tree but other from that , i don't think ive ever said the words : NO, DON'T TOUCH, LOOK DON'T TOUCH, GET AWAY FROM THERE and did i mention NO !? ..... Oh well , thats what i get for putting it up early .. maybe by christmas he wont care for it as much lol...

I love that a simple tree , a few decorations can bring so much happiness and joy to a home and our family. And when you go through a situation like we are facing, it really does help cheer up the place. About that, i'm making calls and talking with people to help us out and everything should be fixed within a week or two so if you pray , please keep us in your prayers , in hopes things do clear up and that we are able to give our kids a nice christmas. Thank you to our family and friends for helping us get by and lending a hand and support , its amazing to know we have such great hearted people in our lives.

Some of the ones i thought would come through or even just call me to see if i needed to talk didnt... that shocked me a bit but i guess that some people can be selfish like that and also that some people are so busy with their own lives they don't really notice that their friend needs them right now . I guess i will let karma take care of that part of the situation. I'm not someone to hold grudges and i forgive and forget very easily but after a while... it does get old. So yep , i forgive and forget them.

The truth is , its when you struggle and need your friends the most that you realise who is really a friend and who is there for you. Then you make the choice to either talk to them about it or simply put it aside because you are too much of a good friend to risk bringing it up and have a fight come out of it.... life is what YOU make of it and sometimes being nice to everyone all the time doesnt cut it and you need a backbone before everyone starts walking all over you.... i'm too nice sometimes but ALSO , somethings don't need to be talked about and alot of things don't matter ... They may not be there now but everything happends for a reason and you cant assume someone is bad just because they couldnt guess that you needed them.

I'm babling .. lol so anyways , im gonna wish you all a great friday night ! and a great weekend!
here is some pics of our tree and Max that was so proud and happy to help out ...

when do you usually put your tree up?